24th December 2011

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Late night ramblings

I feel like I’m sinking again. I should be happy, because all of the bad news of the past two weeks has been turning around. I passed the two courses I thought I would fail, and my dad’s cancer isn’t as bad as they initially thought. But instead I feel like I’m about to fall, constantly fearing the pain that will come when I land even though my feet are still on solid ground. I’ve become so used to being crushed emotionally that I’m not sure if I’ll ever be able to let my guard down long enough to truly give someone another chance, even though I desperately want to. I want someone to WANT a chance with me, to WANT to be with me. I don’t care if you’re “in love” with me, just love me enough to want to spend time with me. I would love nothing more right now than to have someone to snuggle up against in bed, fight over blankets, and watch some cheesy B-movie on Netflix with. But instead I’m gonna put on some Wu Tang and sit on Tumblr like a fucking loser, ranting to a bunch of people who, with a handful of exceptions, don’t give a shit, and wish my text posts would stop taking up space on their dashboards that could be filled with puppies, tits, or whatever other random shit people are reblogging today.

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25th July 2011

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Today is one of those days…

where I’d love to spend all day in bed cuddling with someone, watch movies, and eat ham sandwiches with mustard and potato chips :3

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